Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Forgive Yourself

Structure is something that I love but struggle with because I love freedom.

I love the idea of blogging and I love the idea of working it into my schedule but as you can see from the date of my last post, I am not what anyone would call 'consistent' at blogging regularly.

I had all intention of doing a daily blog after each of my shows this fall, and I didn't do one.

Where does that leave me? I have the choice to beat myself up about it. I can choose to accept my imperfection and just throw in the towel: not even try. Or, I can choose to try. (Trying = more than just hoping)

Now that I'm home for a season, I desire to establish a home-routine, waking up at a certain time, incorporating exercise, Bible reading, study, blogging and getting a good chunk of work done before lunch, therefore giving me the rest of the day to be free with my family. I want to do more journaling so that I'll forget less of the millions of things that happen every day that I won't remember this time next year. (Like how my boy says "aminals" instead of "animals.") Things I will fail to do consistently.

Do I have enough grace to forgive myself of my little failings and keep trying?

I don't, frankly, and I often project my lack of grace toward myself on God, assuming that His grace toward me surely has run dry. But His love is an everlasting love. His mercies are new every morning. Those of you who are not parents need to believe that we parents LOVE to forgive our kids when it is obvious they are truly sorry. It breaks our hearts to see them contrite. We forgive, love, hug, cry with and restore. How much more our Heavenly Father? He is Good. He is Love.

Is forgiving yourself important? Remember Jesus' words, "Neither do I condemn you!"


Chris Mowery said...

Great stuff Aaron. Continued prayers headed your way as you follow Christ as a husband, dad, and a minister through music. God Bless You.

Aaron Shust said...

Thanks Chris!

V Joe said...

We need to forgive us which is important as well as forgiving others. The parable of Mathew 18:21-35 strikes me each time where the master is God and the man who owed the master ten thousand talents ( which is equivalent to a million dollars ) get forgiven and his debt cleared. When you read the full verses it would gives us a better understanding. But if we don't love or forgive us, how can we obey the command Jesus said, Love your neighbor and you love yourself.

These are just my thoughts.

We have every reason to thank God that it was he who chose us and not us ourselves. If we had the choice to go for the world or God we would have chosen the world but God makes us closer to him and chastise us like his children to correct us when we go away from his presence or when we deviate from him, thats his love. I would think that God giving us good things and giving us what we prayed for. It should not be because of that we praise God ( just adding what came sorry for the long reply ) Psalms 34:1 I will bless the Lord at all times is what David sang but it is not easy to praise him in difficult circumstances but we are moulded to bring out a new song the one that really glorifies him which comes out at our worst situation.
I would say it is all praise to God and his love that we even exist and through Jesus that we are not consumed before the Holy one. Even though the heaven and earth pass away, he will never , his words will never. Thanks God for that. Thanks to God because he is reigning and not anyone else and not man. I sometimes think of me and wonder how God keeps me and thinks of keeping me when I am not worthy of what he has given me or done for me. The King of Kings leaving everything for us to come down and die for us, so that we would die to ourselves and live for him and not die to him and live for us. I have problems with keeping my routine but you just have to keep working on it. Ask Gods help and then try it out, each day seeking his help keeps us consistent, for he is consistent. Never let failure make a person give up but use that failure to create success. If my hands failed me or my legs or my heart failed me, it is not a choice to change those parts and get a new one which will create success. But I have to keep using those till I can prove to myself and others and the devil that it can succeed. As Jesus used those who were weak to humble the mighty, those who were not intelligent to humble the wise.
I consider taking each time we fail or if we fail many times for one thing and try to make it a success with the help of God.
For God is always there when we call to him. It is a good thing Jesus came otherwise people would be still sinners and there would be not place or no way for them to reach heaven. Thank God that we can serve him and love him with our heart than only serving him literally. As his words are like water in middle of desert where there is no water around us and no hope of finding one. I liked your song, my hope is in you. If Jesus could use Peter who was with him more than the other disciples but who forsook him in front of everyone at the time of his crucifiction and later was used to bring more than 3000 to the Lord. He still gives us(me) a chance to get back up and follow him from where we fell.

Beck Gambill said...

That's really convicting, I project my small view of grace on God all the time. And sadly I portray it to my children. Gonna' chew on that for a while!

Melody Joy King said...

Thanks for this post. I struggle a lot with "feeling" like God is mad at me when I don't live up to my own (sometimes unattainable) high expectations for myself. Always good to be reminded of His inexhaustible grace and delight in us as His beloved children! Psalm 103 is my absolute favorite passage of Scripture and I find myself going back to it often.

"Bless the LORD, O my soul,
and all that is within me, bless His holy name. Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget none of His benefits; Who pardons all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases; Who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with lovingkindness and compassion;
Who satisfies your years with good things, so that your youth is renewed like the eagle. The LORD performs righteous deeds and judgments for all who are oppressed. He made known His ways to Moses, His acts to the sons of Israel. The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness. He will not always strive with us,
nor will He keep His anger forever. He has not dealt with us according to our sins, nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth,so great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.
Just as a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear Him.
For He Himself knows our frame;
He is mindful that we are but dust." ~ Psalm 103:1-14 (NASB)

Fluffy (aka odditblue) said...

Sooooooo needed this.
Thanks Aaron.

mp3 said...

Thank you.

Guayo said...

Thanks Aaron for this post... God bless you.

Batang Manunulat said...

I'm so blessed by your blog. :) -Louie

Political Jules said...

Enter Michael Aaron... One of God's perfect gifts to teach us unconditional love. For ourselves first. Not the "I love myself so much I am stuck on myself," but the real kind of self forgiveness that lets you see the face of God in every gift we are given.