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Thursday, April 12, 2012

Why and Whom I Leave.

April 12 - 24, 2012

I'm sitting in the Atlanta airport watching planes come and go making our big world small.  I'm a month and a half into this tour season and the farewells to the family are becoming more commonplace, therefore the boys aren't crying as much, therefore I don't cry as much.  I held my 3 year old Nicky last night at midnight after I'd taken him to the bathroom one last time, he hung mostly-asleep on my shoulder as I rocked him and sang to him.  As I did, I looked at the big map of the United States on the wall of my boys' dark, quiet room.  And it struck me, the privilege I have to take Hope to the people of this one country.  In a big world, I get to bounce around these 50 states and sing praises to Jesus with you, sharing with you what our Lord is actively doing in our hearts with hopes to encourage you.  If I must leave my wife and boys for a season, what more noble purpose is there?  That's rhetorical.  I love getting to share my time away with you all.  


Easter. I told Michael the tomb was empty.
Michael is still on medication to strengthen his little body as long as possible.  He's currently 7.5 pounds.   He's desaturated a couple times, where his hands and feet will turn bluish-grey...one time his whole body did, as he struggles to oxygenate his blood.  We quickly reposition him, encouraging him back to deeper breaths.  It can be scary to be sure.  We're praying for healing.  My friend Larry Smith says that if you're going to pray, "Pray big."  Elijah was a man just like and us and he prayed a dead boy back to life, fire from heaven and rain back to a parched land.  Big prayers.  I'm praying for a brand new heart before surgery is even needed.  But I'm completely good with whatever God wills.  His ways are higher! 

God is teaching us so much about what is important, what is worth dreaming about, what is good. What it really means to be blessed.  More about how we are infinitely loved by an All Powerful Father who doesn't need us, but knows we need Him.  

Hope to see you out there.  Maybe we'll get to talk about some of this.  

Don't forget to ask your radio station to play Risen Today :) His resurrection is worth singing about more than just on Easter Sunday morning!  Thanks!

17 comments:

LISA GILMARTIN said...

Such a nice post. Love the expression on Michael's face, and your caption....so cute! I'll pray BIG for you too....and am looking forward to seeing you (and all the guys) on May 13.

May God bless you and your family in a BIg, BIG way!

dsmoss said...

Aaron.....You inspire me to be so much more than I am. When I read your posts all I can do is cry. You are a blessing to me...through your words in the blogs and in the words to your songs....thank you for serving the Lord in HIS ways!!! Please NEVER quit blogging your with your heart!!! God truly has gifted you with writing!!!!

Beck Gambill said...

I'm thankful for your blog and music, a little window into what God is willing to do for those who are faithful. Truly it's breathtaking. Thank you for inspiring us with your humble heart and devoted belief in our powerful God. Praying for you as you travel and your family as they stay home.

If These Walls Spoke... said...

I love this-Pray Big!! Thanks for sharing.

Victoria said...

Your ministry and talent is so incredibly special. I enjoy seeing new posts from you in my Google Reader, and I'm thankful you're sharing your journey with us. You provide such a hope to me, and I am blessed by your music regularly. Thank you for what you do, for the sacrifices your family makes and for unyielding faith you and your wife display. Praying big!

Tamera Landi said...

Hey Aaron, I pray for you and your family often. Your music is so inspiring to keep going and never give up. I've had many trials in life, and my son had serious medical problems after a car accident. He's 23 now and doing great, a man of God! Be encouraged that God knows your every need and he sees your little Michael (my son's name too). God will never give us more than we can handle and all things turn into blessings and little Michael will be a testimony of faith...We love you all. Your dad and my mother in law, Pat are good friends and she sent me your blog. So happy to have it, I love your new song! God's richest blessings on you all...Tammy

Jane porter said...

Hi Aaron,
As always, you share your heart and the Holy Spirit used it to minister to us. Sarah has been on my heart a lot the past few weeks and I take that as direction to lift her up in prayer. Specifically for wisdom, strength, peace, joy, and restful sleep.

Brittnye said...

I was so blessed by the concert tonight (in Lubbock) and was glad to meet you. I did a study by Priscilla Shirer last fall when as I was walking through a very difficult season...still am in that season... but she challenged us to pray, "God, here's my request. Please answer this or do something better." I will be praying for Michael on April 25...praying for something even better! I even put it in my phone to remind me. He's a precious boy!

Cheyanne said...

Hi Aaaron...My family and I were at your concert 4/13/12 at Colonial Church. We really enjoyed your music. I think you, Jason Gray and Downhere are doing and awesome work. You inspire others and give hope in a dark world. Your light shines very bright! Matthew 5:16. We were touched by the comments you made about your family. We are praying for your son and that God will heal his heart. God bless you and your family.

TobyBo said...

the picture of Michael and the caption is the best thing I've seen in a very long time. :)

JANET DARRAH said...

It is difficult as a fulltime working mom to take additional time away from my family to keep my own walk strong. I am so grateful that God placed me in Hudson, OH last month to worship and praise Him with you! I have been sooo busy over the past six years being my son, Anthony's mom, nurse, therapist, advocate... Christian music and BIG prayers have played such a huge part of the daily challenges with him and the many midnight trips to the ER...but "my hope is in YOU" and you are right that those valleys make the mountains so beautiful and meaningful to us and to those we don't even know are watching. Thank God that singing His praises with us blesses you as well.

Charlcy Romero said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! on the beautiful addition of Michael to your family. From a mother of a 7 year old with Down syndrome and an aunt of a 2 year old with Down syndrome. I found out from a friend that you shared your story at the concert in Pueblo last night at FOR. I went back and read your blog from the beginning and it was like I was reliving my own experience as I sat there with tears welling in my eyes I just wanted to reach out and send you and your wife and boys a big hug and reasurance that this is going to be one of the best gifts God has ever given you. Michael will be all the amazing things you wished for and MORE!! My sister and I (the Ds moms :-)) as well as our boys gramdmother are praying for your family and especially Michael as his surgery date approaches. Praying BIG!!
The Romero and Hribar Families Pueblo and Fort Collins Colorado

Amy said...

I stumbled across your blog while looking for 'Christian music artists, Down Syndrome' on google, and I wanted you to know how much I was blessed by reading your story about the birth of Michael. My husband and I became parents to our 6th baby, Noah, just 7 days after Michael was born. He too has Down Syndrome and is going to have open heart surgery May 21st. There have been so many similarities in the range of emotions you have experienced and expressed through your blog, and it helps to know that we are not alone in what we're experiencing. We have seen the hand of God take us through those initial weeks when we were still overwhelmed (and still in the hospital), to the transition and adjustment home with 6 children, to "normalcy" and waiting for surgery. As people have told us, "we have been chosen by God to care for this 'extra' special child to bring Him glory", so have you and Sarah have been chosen. Blessings!

one_plustwins said...

Thank you for the tiny snippets of information on Michael and your family.

Anthony Warner said...

I am praying deeply for him my daughter had heart problems when she was around two years old the doctor was talking about surgery we prayed and prayed when she went to her final check up before they would decide about surgery the doctors could find nothing. I believe that god wants to heal your little boy and I have faith that he will. When u spoke about him at the concert tonight I felt an incredible pull to pray.I hope the best for your son and have faith that God will heal him.

You are in my prayers.

Anthony from Gillette WY.

Dani's Life said...

I have had a lot of things going on in my life and have tried to live by the phrase, "Praise him in the good times and the bad". With your music and your inspiration, I have been able to do just that. God has been answering my prayers lately and will answer yours as well. Thanks for providing the world with your music and allowing us to read your blog. I'll be praying for you and your family so that your prayers can be answered too.

Rev. Robyn J. Plocher said...

Dear Aaron, I had the incredible joy of seeing you in concert last night in Cedar Falls, Iowa. I can't tell you how much I needed to be reminded of the hope you sing of. I have visited your blog for the first time today and I want to encourage you and your wife, for truly I know something of what you are going through. Both our children were born with congenital heart defects. Our son also has an intellectual disability. More trips to the Emergency Room than I could count and four cardiac ablations later, he is 23 years old. He will have to have valve replacement surgery one day in the future. Everything truly important in life I have learned from him. Never knowing what the future might hold I have learned to cherish the unique gift of each day. There is not room here to say much more,and words cannot really express what is on my heart, but I want you to know that Michael is beautiful (you knew that already!) and I will be praying for you, your wife (God bless her!) and Michael. I believe you said his surgery is Monday. Your family will never be far from my thoughts and prayers that day. IF EVER you or your wife need the ear or shoulder of another person who has "been there" you have an open invitation to contact me or my husband. My blog is www.1Thessalonians4-13.blogspot.com

Grace and Peace